If you’ve been reading my blog for some time now you’ll probably know of Mrs K but for those who are new, she’s my guidance teacher at school. We have a really good relationship and she literally saved my life one time, so all-in-all she’s a pretty good egg. But recently she’s been kind of getting me down.
I came back to school after summer, two days after a bit of an incident and it’s reasonable that she would be worried. We’re only about 2 weeks in to the school term so that worry has not yet subsided.
We have a safety plan put in place when I’m at school to make sure I don’t get myself in to any kind of danger (and to keep the school right😛).
It’s pretty strict. Wait, scrub that, it’s very strict so there’s a lot I’m not allowed to do. I’m not to leave school during free periods; go to music at break, lunch or free periods; be in music practice rooms alone during class time or even go in and out of the school at the beginning and end of the day without signing in and telling Mrs K that I’m doing so.
It’s exhausting. I really struggle when I feel like I’m doing something wrong and when there’s so many rules, there’s so many rules you could break on accident. It’s killing me.
But recently it’s gotten even worse. My music teacher, Mrs B, and I have always been quite close. We get along well and she’s been a great support to me over the years.
But recently Mrs K’s been talking as if I’m a burden on her. Saying things like “leave her alone” for the first few days of term and “don’t mention” this that and the next thing to her. She says she needs to “protect her”
Do you know how hurtful it is when someone is “protecting” someone from you. I’m not evil, I’m not a disease, she doesn’t need protected. I’m not out to get her. I’m simply trying to muddle though my life and yes, sometimes I get things wrong but who doesn’t? It doesn’t mean that people need to keep their distance from me
I’m not dangerous. I’m not damaging. I don’t appreciate being made to feel like I am.
So if anyone has any experience with feeling like a burden could you drop your tips in the comments please👇🏻